Why Am I So Focused On Divorce & Remarriage?

Divorce and Remarriage breaks not only your marriage covenant, that God created, but, breaks your fellowship with the Creator. Sin separates you from your Holy God

Isa 59:2  But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear. 

Once the Holy Spirit opens the Truth up to you through the Holy Scriptures, He does it for more than one reason.

My experience concerning this subject, is an answer to prayer. When I repented of my sins and asked for forgiveness in 2017 I dedicated all that I am to the LORD. During prayer I will ask the Father to search my heart and see if there is any wicked way in me and to show me so I can ask for forgiveness and repent (turn away) from those sins. He being faithful and wanting none to perish (even me) began to reveal things to me and He still does.

I am a work in progress, a broken vessel that He is putting back together in His way.


Mal 2:14  Yet ye say, Wherefore? Because the LORD hath been witness between thee and the wife of thy youth, against whom thou hast dealt treacherously: yet is she thy companion, and the wife of thy covenant. 
Mal 2:15  And did not he make one? Yet had he the residue of the spirit. And wherefore one? That he might seek a godly seed. Therefore take heed to your spirit, and let none deal treacherously against the wife of his youth. 
Mal 2:16  For the LORD, the God of Israel, saith that he hateth putting away (DIVORCE): for one covereth violence with his garment, saith the LORD of hosts: therefore take heed to your spirit, that ye deal not treacherously. 

Well, I had been wanting to know according to God, who is my husband in His eyes. For those who do not know, or who have never heard my testimony, I have been married and divorced 5 times! Yes a real life “woman at the well”. One difference I was not living with someone who is not my husband. I was single, and wanted to know was I to remain that way. I started praying in 2017 for answers.

My first marriage happened I was only 17 when married, we divorced 7 years later which was both of our first marriage. My second marriage I committed adultery, this was his 3rd marriage and my second, an hour after saying, “I do” I had called my sister crying and told her I made the biggest mistake of my life. We were married 7 years, then I married my 3rd husband who was the adulterous affair from my 2nd husband. Our divorce was final after 8 years but began at 7 years he was never married before but this was my 3rd, again I had committed adultery, I married my fourth husband, yes you guessed it, it was who I cheated on my 3rd husband with and became my next husband. My fourth marriage was a bit more complicated. We married in a church, but I really did not want to marry, I feared this man greatly. He had beaten me severally when I was cheating on my 3rd husband and it was so bad I was unrecognizable. (Some would say and probably rightfully so that I deserved it.) Anyway, I married him, but the minister gave me the actual marriage license to mail in. I did not mail it in, when he disappeared on me about a month later, I shredded the marriage license. And when he came home, I refused to let him in and called the police. I told him about me shredding it and he moved to Texas. I was his first wife he was my fourth husband. My 5th husband was more like a friendship rather than a marriage. We never really shared a bed together. We were drinking buddies basically, I slept in a lazy boy in the sun room and he slept in the bedroom, that was before we even married. After marrying our sleeping arrangement stayed the same. We were only married for two years, he was on his second marriage this was my 5th. I am best friends with my 5th ex-husband and actually rent a room (the sunroom) from him, along with my sister in law and my best friend and her two children.

My first two marriage were Godless, my third is when I was born again, my fourth and fifth was Godless. So I thought that God recognized my third husband so I accepted that. But I was wrong.

I have repented and have shed many tears over my adulterous life and the pattern. My soul was so heavy because I began to think of how many times in my life I had repented, and fell away. Started when I was 13 or at least that is my first memory of it. Then throughout my life, when I was 19 and my first husband was 20 we started going to Church for a while, even after moving to New Jersey we tried to continue going to Church. Then after my 2 year old daughter was ran over, after losing my mind for months I repented for a short while, then went right back into the world. Then when I was married one week to my 3rd husband I ended up in the mental hospital, and that is when I was truly born again, BUT now looking back every time I lay in the same bed with him I became an adulteress again. That marriage was bound to not work, because God did not recognize it as a marriage but an adulterous relationship. I never knew that then and I was teaching kids as a youth Pastor, I was preaching on Sunday mornings and evenings, even started preaching at other churches as an evangelist! All the while living in an adulterous relationship, I am thankful to God that He forgave me! What a shame on many accounts! But that is another testimony for another day.

So I became fearful that if I had a pattern in the natural life of being an adulteress that I had that in my flesh to be a spiritual adulteress as well. I have shed so many tears, prayers that were only groanings and things that I could not even form into words. I avoid all things that are wicked and unrighteous that may tempt me to pull away. I do not watch tv, movies, listen to the radio, I refuse to sit under a female Pastor, nor will I attend any Church that does not preach the death, burial, resurrection, heaven, hell or sin, I avoid churches that have “Christmas tress” in their sanctuaries or have “Easter” egg hunts. I have removed myself off of gossip media i.e. Facebook. I question practically everything, and I will search the scriptures for myself before I accept anything from anyone. It is not because I think I am more spiritual because I know I am not, I am to guard my heart and work out my salvation with fear and trembling. So I battle every single day, I keep sermons and teaching in my ears, or I am reading the Bible, devotionals, or books by old time ministers. I pray without ceasing as Apostle Paul tells us too, in my mind or out loud. The kids think I am crazy because I am always talking to the LORD and they will ask who I am talking too. lol I cannot let my guard down or leave any kind of door open not even a crack for the enemy to enter into my life. I get at time weary and tired, but I know He is with me. The battle between flesh and the spirit will not cease till the last breath in this body has exhaled.

Anyway, let me continue.

Then in late May 2020 early June 2020 I began praying and crying out to the LORD again to help me. I was lonely, sex was the very last thing on my mind, but just companionship. Just to be held, walk hand in hand with someone to share with someone fellowship with Jesus. To have a husband over me, to be my spiritual leader, to be my covering. Someone to teach me and pray for me as well as with me. Well, in June, He answered my prayer I began praying in 2017, and through scripture He opened it up. Jesus’ own spoken Words, Apostle Paul’s teachings jumped off the page at me. God only recognized one marriage and the other four were adulterous affairs. No matter for what reason, the divorce did not separate what God had joined together.

Fornication and Adultery is not the same thing!

Mat 5:32  But I say unto you, That whosoever shall put away his wife, saving for the cause of fornication (porniea), causeth her to commit adultery (mochiea): and whosoever shall marry her that is divorced committeth adultery (mochiea). 

Mat 19:9  And I say unto you, Whosoever shall put away his wife, except it be for fornication (porniea), and shall marry another, committeth adultery (mochiea): and whoso marrieth her which is put away doth commit adultery (mochiea).

Mar 10:11  And he saith unto them, Whosoever shall put away his wife, and marry another, committeth adultery against her. 
Mar 10:12  And if a woman shall put away her husband, and be married to another, she committeth adultery. 

Luk 16:18  Whosoever putteth away his wife, and marrieth another, committeth adultery: and whosoever marrieth her that is put away from her husband committeth adultery. 

1Co 7:10  And unto the married I command, yet not I, but the Lord, Let not the wife depart from her husband: 
1Co 7:11  But and if she depart, let her remain unmarried, or be reconciled to her husband: and let not the husband put away his wife. 

Rom 7:2  For the woman which hath an husband is bound by the law to her husband so long as he liveth; but if the husband be dead, she is loosed from the law of her husband. 
Rom 7:3  So then if, while her husband liveth, she be married to another man, she shall be called an adulteress: but if her husband be dead, she is free from that law; so that she is no adulteress, though she be married to another man. 

Well, truthfully that did not sit real well with me. So I kept searching scriptures, the more I searched the more it confirmed scripture. Then suddenly, He was bringing ministers to my news feed on my YouTube channel! David Pawson, Mike Gorrie, and Joseph Webb. Zac Poonen even taught on it. Well I had a choice to make, love the TRUTH all of it, or pick and choose what I wanted to accept out of the Word of God. It was not a hard choice, I love the LORD Jesus Christ with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength He is TRUTH and regardless if the truth at times doesn’t sit well I had to love it, and obey it.

When I eventually put my study up on Facebook, it was just to share what the LORD opened up to me. I never even thought of angering people (women). Well, I was pretty much attacked, blocked, called a heretic, told to be silent that I did not understand scripture, told to be silent that I was too young in the LORD, and told I did not know God’s voice. Some were long time friends, one was relation, a few more Christian sisters. All with one thing in common, adulterous marriages THAT I DID NOT EVEN KNOW ABOUT! and each one let me know that God has forgiven them they are under grace and I am wrong. Some were married before, some were married to someone who was married before, but, all call themselves born again Christians, yet refuse to believe what the Word of God says concerning remarriage if your spouse is still alive. Jesus said, LET NO MAN PUT ASUNDER (SEPARATE, TEAR APART, DIVIDE IN TWO) WHAT GOD HAS JOINED TOGETHER (MADE ONE FLESH).

Marriage is a very special COVENANT it is not a “contract” that can be broken. Marriage is a picture of Jesus Our Bridegroom and the Church His Purified Bride. God is NOT A COVENANT BREAKER! But people will say, “yeah, but He divorced Israel His wife”. Yes, He did and He also has told them TO COME BACK TO HIM! He also said one day they will call Him HUSBAND and no more master! He told Hosea to literally go marry a prostitute and told him, she will not be faithful, she will continue to sell herself. But then God told Hosea, you go buy your WIFE back, bring her home! Hosea did just that, but he did not lay with her for a while as a husband, UNTIL, SHE LEARNED REVERANCE FEAR OF HER HUSBAND! Then Hosea treated her as his wife once again and she never left him again!

Joshua made a covenant under trickery with the enemy, when he was told he was tricked he wanted to break the covenant but GOD REFUSED TO LET HIM! Why? Because GOD DOES NOT BREAK COVENANTS! That covenant that Joshua made, hundreds of years later king Saul broke it, and guess what happened? God held the rain and sent a famine! David prayed asked God what was happening and God told him what king Saul had done. God told him to go to the Gibeonites and ask them what needs to be done to heal the broken covenant, they said to hang 7 of Saul’s sons! After it was done the protection of the hand of God came back to Israel!

Jos 9:3  And when the inhabitants of Gibeon heard what Joshua had done unto Jericho and to Ai, 
Jos 9:4  They did work wilily, and went and made as if they had been ambassadors, and took old sacks upon their asses, and wine bottles, old, and rent, and bound up; 
Jos 9:5  And old shoes and clouted upon their feet, and old garments upon them; and all the bread of their provision was dry and mouldy. 

Jos 9:6  And they went to Joshua unto the camp at Gilgal, and said unto him, and to the men of Israel, We be come from a far country: now therefore make ye a league with us. 
Jos 9:7  And the men of Israel said unto the Hivites, Peradventure ye dwell among us; and how shall we make a league with you? 
Jos 9:8  And they said unto Joshua, We are thy servants. And Joshua said unto them, Who are ye? and from whence come ye? 
Jos 9:9  And they said unto him, From a very far country thy servants are come because of the name of the LORD thy God: for we have heard the fame of him, and all that he did in Egypt, 
Jos 9:10  And all that he did to the two kings of the Amorites, that were beyond Jordan, to Sihon king of Heshbon, and to Og king of Bashan, which was at Ashtaroth. 
Jos 9:11  Wherefore our elders and all the inhabitants of our country spake to us, saying, Take victuals with you for the journey, and go to meet them, and say unto them, We are your servants: therefore now make ye a league with us. 
Jos 9:12  This our bread we took hot for our provision out of our houses on the day we came forth to go unto you; but now, behold, it is dry, and it is mouldy: 
Jos 9:13  And these bottles of wine, which we filled, were new; and, behold, they be rent: and these our garments and our shoes are become old by reason of the very long journey. 
Jos 9:14  And the men took of their victuals, and asked not counsel at the mouth of the LORD. 
Jos 9:15  And Joshua made peace with them, and made a league with them, to let them live: and the princes of the congregation sware unto them. 

Jos 9:18  And the children of Israel smote them not, because the princes of the congregation had sworn unto them by the LORD God of Israel. And all the congregation murmured against the princes. 
Jos 9:19  But all the princes said unto all the congregation, We have sworn unto them by the LORD God of Israel: now therefore we may not touch them. 
Jos 9:20  This we will do to them; we will even let them live, lest wrath be upon us, because of the oath which we sware unto them. 
Jos 9:21  And the princes said unto them, Let them live; but let them be hewers of wood and drawers of water unto all the congregation; as the princes had promised them. 
Jos 9:22  And Joshua called for them, and he spake unto them, saying, Wherefore have ye beguiled us, saying, We are very far from you; when ye dwell among us? 
Jos 9:23  Now therefore ye are cursed, and there shall none of you be freed from being bondmen, and hewers of wood and drawers of water for the house of my God. 

David Avenges the Gibeonites
2Sa 21:1  Then there was a famine in the days of David three years, year after year; and David enquired of the LORD. And the LORD answered, It is for Saul, and for his bloody house, because he slew the Gibeonites. 
2Sa 21:2  And the king called the Gibeonites, and said unto them; (now the Gibeonites were not of the children of Israel, but of the remnant of the Amorites; and the children of Israel had sworn unto them: and Saul sought to slay them in his zeal to the children of Israel and Judah.) 
2Sa 21:3  Wherefore David said unto the Gibeonites, What shall I do for you? and wherewith shall I make the atonement, that ye may bless the inheritance of the LORD? 
2Sa 21:4  And the Gibeonites said unto him, We will have no silver nor gold of Saul, nor of his house; neither for us shalt thou kill any man in Israel. And he said, What ye shall say, that will I do for you. 
2Sa 21:5  And they answered the king, The man that consumed us, and that devised against us that we should be destroyed from remaining in any of the coasts of Israel, 
2Sa 21:6  Let seven men of his sons be delivered unto us, and we will hang them up unto the LORD in Gibeah of Saul, whom the LORD did choose. And the king said, I will give them. 
2Sa 21:7  But the king spared Mephibosheth, the son of Jonathan the son of Saul, because of the LORD’S oath that was between them, between David and Jonathan the son of Saul. 
2Sa 21:8  But the king took the two sons of Rizpah the daughter of Aiah, whom she bare unto Saul, Armoni and Mephibosheth; and the five sons of Michal the daughter of Saul, whom she brought up for Adriel the son of Barzillai the Meholathite: 
2Sa 21:9  And he delivered them into the hands of the Gibeonites, and they hanged them in the hill before the LORD: and they fell all seven together, and were put to death in the days of harvest, in the first days, in the beginning of barley harvest.

2Sa 21:14  And the bones of Saul and Jonathan his son buried they in the country of Benjamin in Zelah, in the sepulchre of Kish his father: and they performed all that the king commanded. And after that God was intreated for the land. 

Family in Christ please understand this, God holds the marriage covenant in a much higher standard because it is a picture of Christ and His Church!

When someone holds the truth but remains silent in fear of offending, being unfriended, hated, block, or called names, by those who claim to be Christians, they will be judged, but so will you for choosing silence rather than Truth! Ignorance is not bliss nor does God wink at sin. Jesus was very clear, so simple that a child can understand it. If you divorce do not remarry, if you do you are in adultery, but, not only you but the one you married is as well!

I am not calling anyone an adulterer, I am telling you what the scriptures say about it. I have posted a few men of God that has integrity and have lived a life for God that has many to testify of their lives.

I do this out of love and concern for many.

The Words of Christ sometimes haunts me when it comes to this subject, because I am reminded where He said, (I am going to paraphrase here) that many will come to Him in that day and say, LORD did I not do this and do that and He will say, Depart from Me I never knew you, you who work iniquity.

Iniquity is lawlessness and adultery is breaking the law of God. Why do you call Me LORD and not do what I told you? I do not want anyone’s blood on my hands, I do not want anyone to go to hell, so if me telling you the truth makes you my enemy at least I have told you the truth. I love you all.

Luk 6:46  And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say? 
Luk 6:47  Whosoever cometh to me, and heareth my sayings, and doeth them, I will shew you to whom he is like: 
Luk 6:48  He is like a man which built an house, and digged deep, and laid the foundation on a rock: and when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently upon that house, and could not shake it: for it was founded upon a rock. 
Luk 6:49  But he that heareth, and doeth not, is like a man that without a foundation built an house upon the earth; against which the stream did beat vehemently, and immediately it fell; and the ruin of that house was great. 

So I now have my answer from Holy Scripture and I am very satisficed and embrace the Truth that has opened to me. I will remain single and be content with it. I am very blessed to be able to dedicate my entire life and time to the LORD. Because if I was married my time would have to be shared with my husband as Apostle Paul tells us. There is no hope for reconciliation with my first husband he is remarried and they share a wonderful life with a daughter they adopted from China. I do pray for their salvation, and I pray for them as well as so many, praying all will learn the truth in scripture.

2Ti 3:12  Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution. 
2Ti 3:13  But evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, deceiving, and being deceived. 
2Ti 3:14  But continue thou in the things which thou hast learned and hast been assured of, knowing of whom thou hast learned them; 
2Ti 3:15  And that from a child thou hast known the holy scriptures, which are able to make thee wise unto salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus. 
2Ti 3:16  All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: 
2Ti 3:17  That the man of God may be perfect, throughly furnished unto all good works. 

You can disagree with the Word of God, but your denial does not change the Word of God. The Word of God will judge us all, we must get our life lined up with it.

Mar 10:6  But from the beginning of the creation God made them male and female. 
Mar 10:7  For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and cleave to his wife; 
Mar 10:8  And they twain shall be one flesh: so then they are no more twain, but one flesh. 
Mar 10:9  What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder. 

Joh 14:15  If ye love me, keep my commandments. 

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