My cousin sent these scriptures to me yesterday, she said she believed the LORD wanted her too. She didn’t know why, but I did.
28Then Peter said, Lo, we have left all, and followed thee. 29And he said unto them, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or parents, or brethren, or wife, or children, for the kingdom of God’s sake, 30Who shall not receive manifold more in this present time, and in the world to come life everlasting.
Last year the LORD spoke to me very clearly and asked me if I would leave my children for Him. It actually stopped me in my tracks, my eyes filled up with tears and I began to cry. Through my tears, I answered, “Yes LORD, I will leave my children for You”. My children are grown adults now married and my daughter has children of her own. But that does not negate the pain inside of leaving them in no way. In my eyes, they will always be my babies, and will always need me.
In December the LORD sent me to Turkey, into the unknown with Him alone. I did not know if I would return alive or in a casket quite honestly. But I was and still am willing to go where He sends me. Before I left for Turkey I made sure my children and grandchildren knew without ever doubting I love them. Thankfully I did come home safely after 2 weeks away.
When I left for Rome a few weeks ago, again unsure of returning safely I went anyways. That trip was a lot different than Turkey, Rome was an eye-opener for me greatly.
Now, this time though still in Michigan and not out of the country I left home again 2 weeks ago. Because the LORD told me too. Tomorrow I return home.
I do not know where I will be sent to next and I am not concerned about it. Wherever He sends, He will protect and if it is my time to be a martyr or to continue another day He only knows cause I do not.
It is not an easy thing to leave all, there are tears as you leave and there are tears while away not knowing if tomorrow will come or not. Is it worth it? I cannot answer for anyone but myself this question.
My answer without thinking is YES!!! I have not felt more alive ever than these last couple of months.
I have spent more time in prayer than ever before, I have examined my heart more times than I can count. I have repented more times than I have fingers and toes and some of that is on a daily BASIS!! If a thought enters my mind that is not holy I repent, if I have an unclean dream I repent whatever that does not exalt and glorify God I repent, it is a lifestyle for me. It means everything to me.
I want to enter the very Presence of God and if there is any sin in my life I will be consumed. He is a consuming fire and rightfully so because He is HOLY, HOLY, HOLY! I cannot clean myself nor can you, but when we repent we must turn away from that sin, ask Christ Jesus to deliver us and save us from that sin, not repeating it again and again. Only Christ being God’s Only-begotten Son and His Anointed can cleanse us, and clothe us in His Righteousness.
I do not serve Christ Jesus as a “get out of hell” card. I serve Him because He IS GOD, I love Him because HE LOVED ME FIRST, I am thankful for Him, He created me, He died for me, He ENDURED eternity’s punishment that I deserved in THREE HOURS! He forgave the unforgivable and gave me mercy who deserved none. He is my Father and I am His daughter.
This is why I serve and adore the LORD!
I have told Him, I only want to look upon His face and kiss His feet then if He so desires He can destroy me because just to see Him theOne who loved me so much is worth it all.
God gave us the free gift of Salvation, through Christ Jesus. But it will cost you EVERYTHING! Are you willing to leave all and follow Him? Choose wisely, my friends. It is not a decision to make quickly, but as Christ said, count the cost.